I could not long such suffering sustain,
Nor would it long have held you from your grieving.
Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,

I hope that choice will not my memory stain,
Nor lead you to be wroth at my deceiving.
My love and need for all of you remain.

For only in you do I live again,
Woven like a wind into your weaving.
Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,

I put to you the plea of the self-slain:
To comprehend an anguish past conceiving.
My love and need for all of you remain

That all that I have been not be in vain,
But blend into the earth of your believing.
Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,
My love and need for all of you remain.

When I come to the end of my journey and I travel my last weary mile, just forget if you can, that I ever frowned and remember only the smile. Forget unkind words I have spoken; remember some good I have done. Forget that I ever had heartache and remember I've had loads of fun. Forget that I've stumbled and blundered and sometimes fell by the way. Remember I have fought some hard battles and won, ere the close of the day. Then forget to grieve for my going, I would not have you sad for a day, but in summer just gather some flowers and remember the place where I lay, and come in the shade of evening when the sun paints the sky in the west. Stand for a few moments beside me and remember only my best.

Some day all doubt and mystery, will be made clear; the threatened clouds which now we see will disappear. Some day what seems a punishment, or loss, or pain, will prove to be God's blessing sent for every gain. Some day our weary feet will rest in sweet content, and we will know how we were blest by what was sent. And looking back with clearer eyes O'er Life's short span, will see with wondering, glad surprise, God's perfect plan. And knowing that the way we went was God's own way, will understand His wise intent, some day-some day.

I am home in heaven, dear ones. Oh, so happy and so bright! There is a perfect joy and beauty in the everlasting light. All the pain and grief is over, every restless tossing passed; I am now at peace forever, safely home in heaven at last. There is work still waiting for you, so you must not idly stand, do it now, while life remaineth -- You shall rest in God's own land. When that work is all completed. He will gently call you Home; Oh, the rapture of that meeting. Oh, the joy to see you come!

May I Go Now? Don't you think the time is right? May I say good-by to pain-filled days and endless lonely nights? I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be. So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free? I didn't want to go at first, I fought with all my might!

But something seems to draw me now to a warm and loving light. I want to go! I really do! It's difficult to stay but I will try as best I can to live just one more day --- To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears. I know you're sad and are afraid because I see your tears. I'll not be far, I promise that, and hope you'll always know that my spirit will be close to you wherever you may go. Thank you so for loving me. You know I loved you too. That's why it's hard to say good-bye and end this life with you. So hold me now, just one more time and let me hear you say, because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.